Unwritten

There once was a time where i could keep myself company, where i could have fun with a cardboard box, some markers, and some tape. A time where i was a child, and my brother was still my keeper, and my sister was a little brat. A time i like to think i was happy, but even then i was not so sure.

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Me = Apple Employee.

:)

Hello everyone!!

HRD!

Yes indeed, HRD everyone… its been a long couple of months here. I find the desire to post is still strong! but the time given to me to do so is so limited :( I often wonder why i can help design (and practically execute) a website for Fanime in a day or two, but i still can redesign this site in 2 years… I think i’m just afraid of CSS! hahaha, i suck at it majorly.. seriously.

Anyways, the latest event has been Mantha’s 25th birthday ball extravaganza! It was great hanging out with so many old friends, showing off Ashley to the family, and just having a good time celebrating the life of Mantha. :) Mantha’s events always seem to have a way of “opening” people’s eyes and spurning events and ideas which spread on past our own lives. Hahaha, the things i learned and experienced this weekend will be with me for a long long time.

This weekend also showed me how much i do miss my life back in Davis (and at the same time, DONT miss it.. hahaha) In general, i miss the friends… the random evenings just chilling and talking and yes… gossiping! I miss heading out to Denny’s in big groups and sharing stories so hard to believe that it borders on a fantasy. I miss having so much fun that we forget what time it is. While its not necessarily totally lost to me, and i do still have some of these experiences- its some of the general players- Dave, Steve, James, Kalen, Clarissa… that i miss the most.

Ah well… it shows me that *I* need to make more of an effort to keep in touch- something i hope i can accomplish :) There are many other people who have moved to the fringes of my radar that i hope to draw back in to the center.

Anyways… back to school work-

Back to “redesigning” this blog… Perhaps i should stop trying to think so grandly, and bring it back to something clean and simple.

X-posted LJ, Blogger

I wish I could hook up my blogs to my brain. By the time the idea comes to me, and i get a chance to open up a window, a program.. anything that lets me write it all down; the message has changed.
Self censorship or just selective editing.. maybe i’m really just improving it? I’m not sure really; I wish i could just transfer my most pure thoughts onto paper without the influence of my hands, without the influence of the feeling of the keyboards on my finger.. just pure raw emotion and thought; open for the world to see..

I wish i could be more open, not afraid of what is out there to get me. not constantly looking over my shoulder for whomever is standing around waiting for me to fuck up. I’m paranoid like that; paranoid that my friends will leave me, that i will forever be alone… trapped inside of my own mind, never realizing my full and powerful potential.

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Meow.. here are some cat Haiku from various sources gathered here! yay! I had them in a word document and cant seem to find a reliable source (they are all over the internet; just do a google search for ‘Cat Haiku’)

You never feed me.
Perhaps I’ll sleep on your face.
That will show you.

You must scratch me there!
Yes, above my tail! Behold,
elevator butt.

I need a new toy.
Tail of black dog keeps good time.
Pounce! good dog! good dog!

The rule for today.
Touch my tail, I shred your hand.
New rule tomorrow.

In deep sleep hear sound
Cat vomit hairball somewhere.
Will find in morning.

Grace personified
I leap into the window
I meant to do that

Blur of motion, then-
Silence, me, a paper bag
What is so funny?

The mighty hunter
Returns with gifts of plump birds
Your foot just squashed one.

You’re always typing
Well, let’s see you ignore my
Sitting on your hands.

My small cardboard box
You cannot see me if I
Can just hide my head.

Terrible battle
I fought for hours. Come and see!
What’s a “term paper”?

Kitty likes plastic
Confuses for litter box
Don’t leave tarp around

Small brave carnivores
Kill pine cones and mosquitoes
Fear vacuum cleaner

Want to trim my claws
Don’t even think about it!
My yelps will wake the dead

I want to be close
To you. Can I fit my head
inside your armpit?

Wanna go outside.
Oh, no! Help! I got outside!
Let me back inside!

Oh no! Big One
has been trapped by newspaper.
Cat to the rescue!

Humans are so strange.
Mine lies still in the bed, then screams!
My claws aren’t that sharp….

Cats meow out of angst
“Thumbs! If only we had thumbs!
We could break so much”

Litter box not there
You must have moved it again
I’ll crap in the sink

The Big Ones snore now
Every room is dark and cold
time for “Cup Hockey”

We’re almost equals
I purr to show I love you
Want to smell my butt.

Oh Great, just as i complete the overal site change for my Blog; My server decides to cut out on me overnight! WTF? I hope i can go and fix it; i’ve always been afraid it would die on me sooner or later.

Take the quiz: “Blades!”

Broad Sword
You are personal power and internal strength. You are not the fastest but you get the job done like no one else.

Ok, I snagged this off of A5phyxia

1) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:

“been assigned a value), that data/variable”

2) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?

My work monitor, Apple flat screen 17″

3) What is the last thing you watched on TV?

The News This morning, “Good morning Sacramento”

4) WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is.

10:40 AM

5) Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?

10:38 AM

6) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

Radio 107.9 the end, and The voices of my coworkers

7) When did you last step outside? what were you doing?

7:45 AM: Walking into work

8) Before you came to this website, what did you look at?

Other Blogs,Xangas

9) What are you wearing?

Head->Toes
My Glasses, Dark Blue/purple Button up shirt, White T-shirt. Jeans, Boxers, Socks and my Vans

10) Did you dream last night?

Not that I can remember

11) When did you last laugh?

Last night watching Legally Blonde/Legally Blonde 2 with Mantha and Rosina

12) What is on the walls of the room you are in?

Picture of “The House” Calendar, Copyright rules, Various maps and charts i use at work. Some pictures of my friends.

13) Seen anything weird lately?

Yeah, everyday.

14) Last movie you saw?

Legally Blonde 2

15. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?

A New Car, any car that looks nice.

16) Tell me something about you that I don’t know.

I participated in a national Math contest and did pretty good.

17) If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

Share more fod.

18) Do you like to dance?

Yes, but i’m not very good.

19) George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or someone who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?

Neither, hes just a man trying to do his job.

20) Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?

Whatever my wife and I decide. I have a lot of name i could think of.

21) [Same question for a boy]

Same as above, but i’m partial to William :) haha

22) Would you ever consider living abroad?

Yep, i’ll live anywhere my heart takes me.

Did you know me?

And from your kingdom you’re evicted

Do you know me? Do you think you know me? What was it that you saw, or thought you saw when you looked at me? More likely than not… you were wrong. YOU do not know who i am; how can you.. when i’ve shown so little to most people, when i’m only barely discovering now many of the things at my core. All this new discovery, new meanings that you are not privy to; and wont be.

No… you were too preoccupied with your own issues, your own problems to see me there. I was just another minion; a tool moving you forward. What you saw was only what I let you see, and what you know is only a fraction of what is there. And now… now your kingdom is gone; your loyal subjects were never loyal. you are left alone.