Breaking Free

Posted by Grey on February 12th, 2010 filed in Family, Friends, Work/School

“You know the world can see us In a way that’s different than who we are”

It seems whenever i come here its always “bad” news. My last great bastion of hope in the drearily dark lands. Just like many of my inner adventures, this island of mine is not always what it seems. My own personal Dharma Initiative island i suppose. (Hmm, a Lost Reference… only a few years behind.)

I dont know what i really need to break free from, all i know is that i am trapped. I feel the walls closing in on me with each breath i take and there is no light in the darkness. What do i have to complain about? I’m Engaged, i have a great paying job, i have a roof over my head, food on my tummy and games to keep me entertained. I have a vast array of friends and many events to look forward to.

But its all surface. On the surface everything is fine, but once you chink away on the outer shell, there is just emptiness behind. I lack the passion and the motivation i used to have. What i have is reflected weakly back to me. Like an engine without a purpose, moving over and over but not going anywhere.

I’m quickly running out of steam…