Maybe . . . Maybe Not?

Kinda looking back again, pondering the life that “might have been” wondering what choices i made to bring me to where i am, and what i might have missed. Its a strange feeling.

Facebook and Myspace: definitely links to the past, bringing up memories and thoughts i have not thought about in a long time. I had dreams once… i blame it on too much TV, of having a core group of friends which would follow me through all of life’s adventures. Sam calls it the “saved by the bell syndrome” or some shit like that. Honestly, who wouldnt want something like that? friends so close that you share the rest of your lives together? meeting up all the time, spending both the good and the bad.

The major obstacle in this “dream” of mine is really me. At my core, i’m pretty much a loner. Not that  shy away from people, or avoid other human contact: but i spend much of my time lost in my own thoughts and activities. I am different; i like one on one time.. small groups. I dont really party, i dont drink often, and i like to just sit around playing games and watching TV.

I used to spend my summers laying around the house watching the entire Star Trek movie series, then watching all the james bond movies: one right after the other.

All in all, i think my dream was not totally realistic. Those people on tv were not representative of who i was inside. I DO have a core group of friends, who have share many (mis)adventures with me. We might not share EVERY adventure together in person, but in spirit they are always with me. I Dont see them every day, maybe not even every year- but i know that i could call on them almost any time and they would support me in my endevors.

ah well.. Facebook and Myspac- its nice to catch up on some ghosts of my past.