Unwritten

Its hard when you have to choose.
Things done always seem to work out as planned.

Anyways, looks like i will be leaving my work in a few months :/ We hit a stalemate in what i want, and what they can do- and the priorities dont match up. Its sad, i really love my job, especially the people i work with. Its actually pretty heart breaking knowing that its coming to an end very soon.

Ah well, thats life i suppose- time to move on.

I saw this while driving around ad today
-will

I like to find patterns, not the obvious ones that everyone else seems to catch on immediately (sadly, i seem to even miss a lot of these) but i look at big picture patterns, especially those in my own life.

As it goes, as August once again comes around, that this 1/3 of the year seems to be the most emotional for me. Every year in my recent history seems to revolve around the events of the next couple of months. Between the months of August and December, there are numerous events- both good and bad- which seem to shape my life in so many different ways.

Just some of the events that occur:

My birthday
Dad’s Birthday
Sam’s Birthday
Ashley’s Birthday
Mom’s Birthday
Thanksgiving
Christmas
Anniversary for Ashley and I
Anniversary of some other events, not so plesant.

Going back in my life, it seems that many things which were so profound and lifec hanging- happen during this time of the year. I dont know if its just all the energy and emotion surrounding all the holidays and family times, or just the cold weather- but it all happens during this season. Even now i can feel it coming along- things happening which are shaping my future, and bringing up my past.

I know, as my birthday comes along again, that its time to reflect on the past year. Reflect on my actions- both good and bad- and hope that the good outweighs the bad.