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time for a phone in test.

#Another Email Test#
Check this out! I hope this works :) Thanks scott

Here is the email! I thought i got it all set up; but i was wrong.. took me longer- i hope it works this time. the time is 3:30am

Welp, i survived another christmas eve with the family. As many people probably thought, it wasnt as bad as it could have been. The evening started on a pretty sour note, and while that note carried through the entire night/morning; we were able to pull through.

In my discussions with Mantha tho, i discovered that perhaps why i seem to dislike Christmas with the family so much; is the possibility of “change” Christmas comes and with it brings the appearance of joy, togetherness, and family. However, in my experience the bubble seems to burst quite quickly. I find the year after year, the high ends with a huge crash- and my bitterness towards my family grows by leaps and bounds. I find i avoid some family interaction; just so that i can possibly hold onto whatever respect and tenderness i still have for the group as a whole (individually is another matter entirely…)

So it begins again, the evening was nice- and everyone (for the most part) had smiles and shared some laughter. Can this hope of real change in peoples minds hold clear? I know that i tend to change a lot with each passing experience with this family; maybe this time will be different? eh?

Well, here we go, only 4ish hours left till Christmas!
Ah, the things we put up with for the sake of family right? So much the drama and angst flowing around me, while i’m just entering a phase of “I dont care” I really dont at this point- I dont want to goto the standard christmas gathering, i dont want to do much of anything but wait till i can leave and make my way back home.

I’m already making plans to have a much different christmas next year, hopefully things will be able to work out. I know it will be difficult to pull off, but anything will be better than the bland, vanilla- standard Christmas of these past 10+ years.

Here is the Christmas Schedule (based off last year, and the year before, and the year before, and the year before. . . )

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As usual, sitting around here at “home” leads to some curiosity on my part. you see, this house leads to a treasure hunt each day. There are boxes upon boxes upon piles of random doohikies and thingamabobs. Some are older than me, others as new as a day. They just lay about, waiting to be discovered by some random passerby.

through the past week, i’ve been randomly poking my nose into a box or two; finding some bits of treasure i never knew existed, or have forgotten about a long long time ago. Like hidden snippets of time and space, memories are unlocked.

Sitting around bored part of the time doesnt help much either; there isnt much for me to do but sit in the cave of what was once the “play room”, watch some tv and surf the interweb. Strangely, this is very similar to my daily life when i used to call this address, my home.