Unwritten

This taken from a newly refound friend, Karm

TEN FIRSTS

1. First Best Friend: So far the only one who had the title was Milly

2. First Cat: Guido, Black american short hair

3. First Dog: none

4. First Piercing: Dont remember the year, like 5 years ago or so

5. First Big Move: LA to Davis, 1996

6. First Crush: Second Grade: i think it was Noelle

7. First Car: 1980something Buick Park Avenue; I drove it into the ground

8. First Love: Chocolate.. oh wait..

9. First Kiss: first real kiss, Milly

10. First Screen Name: 1713302 (ICQ)

NINE LASTS

1. Last Alchoholic Drink: Manhattan at some Goth Club in SF

2. Last Vehicle Ride: Bus ride from school yesterday

3. Last CD Played: Trans Siberian Orchestra

4. Last Bubble Bath: Years ago (its been a while since i had a bathtub)

5. Last Time You Cried: when i had my “one last cry”

6. Last Hug: wow… weeks ago

7. Last time you really got upset: Begining of November, Yaoi Con

8. Last time i watched TV: Watching TV right now (its always on)

9. Last thing you ate: Marie Calendars Chicken and Dumpling Soup (Canned)

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS

1. Have you ever dated your best friend: Yes.

2. Have you ever been arrested: Not Offically

3. Have you ever skinny dipped: Definately

4. Have you ever been on TV: Yep

5. Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: No, never

6. Have you ever had a dream about someone you knew: All the time

7. Have you ever felt like your parents favor one sibling over another?: Always

8. Have you ever felt like you were high but knew you werent?: Yes.. oxygen depravation.

SEVEN THINGS YOU’RE WEARING

1. Nautica Robe

2. Fredricks Pajama Bottoms

3. Structure Long Sleeve Shirt

4. Ring

5. Casio Watch

6. Scapular

7. Glasses

SIX THINGS YOU’VE DONE TODAY

1. Homework…

2. Cooked

3. Slept

4. More Homework

5. Blogged (obviously)

6. Stayed Home (how lazy am i?)

FIVE THINGS YOU LOVE TO DO

1. sleep.

2. swim.

3. Sing.

4. Order people around. :)

5. Cook

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL [ALMOST] ANYTHING TO

1. Samantha (my sister, knows prolly 90% of everything)

2. Ashley (knows another 90%, not necessarily the same 90%)

3. Rosina

4. … Its a short list :-P

THREE CHOICES

1. eat or drink? drink

2. skittles or starburst? skittles

3. pink or green? black

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE

1. Pay off my debts

2. Build a good career

ONE THING YOU REGRET

1. Its hard to say i Regret anything; all my actions have led to me where i am today. I’ve leared from most of my mistakes, and my life is better because of them. So none.

Ive been thinking a lot about this blog, and my reasons for it; and why i havent been posting. I feel so closed up right now, its like a cycle :-P

Anyways, im gonna try something new; well im always trying something new. But this time im starting from scratch. Ive been actually working on the CSS for this site. ooo.. no more tables :-P But to start it all; i’m going to kill off my archive and stick to the last year (well this current blog). Its been a long time, and many of the lessons from my past are now hard coded into me. This past year has been one of the worst; and the best in my life; and so much has changed.

The past is that.. its the past. I cannot change it nor do i really want to. Its made me who i am now. Ive talked about closing off the chapters in my life before; and this is just another step i need to take to finish off that goal.

With each coming Holiday, i submit myself to the Holiday Blues. The time of year where depression and sadness rise. I’m finding more and more that the root of it deals with the family, and my personal “timeline”. Honestly, i feel like i’m behind. This unshakable feeling that i’m on the track of my destiny; but that i’m lagging behind somewhere. Like there’s been so much wasted time already, and i’m not moving fast enough. Its a feeling that gets really strong during the Holidays; as i come back into contact with some friends and family that have been on the sidelines; i see how far they have come; and how far i havent.

It all comes together as present buying comes into question. I’m definately not in such a place as to get my loved ones what i would really like to get them. As much as i subscribe to “its the thought that counts” the problem is the thought is there; but the fundage to get what i know would be awesome; isnt. Thats the saddest part for me; seeing my loved ones and feeling that they deserve so much more than i can really give them right now; How many years have they been watching me, knowing that i have such potential; but still just straying on the outside of it.

It makes me sad when i think about how much i feel i pull people down…

It always happens to me, like some evil cycle. I begin to dislike my layout, whicn in turn makes me want to not post.. etc.. etc.. it keeps going. I dont want to be reminded that i still need to come up and design a new layout! so i dont bother posting.

But then again, my life is pretty busy. Here i am in class, spemding most of my days studying , traveling, or “learning” Its a very different experience this time. I wish i had this much energy and determination when i was at Davis, maybe then i wouldnt feel that it was such a waste of time, energy, and effort.

I am definately more inspired this time around. I think my huge debt, and my need tof expand my career and my finances is a good way to push me ahead. I no longer want to sit around, waiting for my dreams to come, i want to focus and do what i can to make them come true. I have a pretty good idea of what i want, and a good idea of what i need to do to get there, and maintain it.

Bleh, but that doesnt mean i’m enjoying it :D School is tough; i’m such a fish out of water. So many talented individuals, so many talented “kids” all with fresher and newer ideas than my own. They are so trendy, so edgy, so “hip”. I know that i still have much to offer, and im sure they can learn a thing or two from me; but that doesnt make me feel so much better.

Well see.. well see

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