Unwritten

I find that even now, at the ripe ol age of 27, i continue to have an assortment of unnatural… or just seemingly idiotic fears. I know that there are many things in life to fear, and that fear is not necessarily bad; but i find that my bigger fears, lead to really weird fears.

For example; i find that i’m afraid to change this blog. I’m still somehow afraid to learn CSS and do the big conversion.

I’m afraid to be back in school (even tho i definately survived the last 4 year stint in school.) I’m afraid to work again, afraid to get stuck in another dead end job and waste away all my energy.

I also look back and see how much the fears have slowed me down. I’ve been afraid of working before too; afraid of the dead end scene; so much that i’m sure i didnt put all my efforts into finding a job after graduation. I was comfortable in my house, in my small easy job… The comfortable atmosphere placed me exactly where i didnt want to be; in a dead end job- with no real future.

Change.. fear of change fuels it all. Even now, after so much change in my life; i’m afraid of even the smallest bit of uncertanty. Whats gonna happen to me? what will it take to finally overcome that which holds me back and take hold of whats in store for me?

Mmm.. Css…