Short Timer

They keep calling me a short timer, it signifies that i’m in a mindset to be out of here. Its so true.. im so bored lately, just sitting here watching my job being done by someone else. My replacement is a good guy, very knowledgable and i’m sure that he’ll fit in just nicely here. That helps me a bit, knowing that i’m leaving my position in good hands.

So much has been changing lately, and i think its finally chatching up to me. I’m realizing the full power of what is going on with me. I’m leaving Davis. I’m begining a new life. I’m expanding my horizons. I’m growing.

My life is so much more open to the possibilities out there, and at the same time i’m choosing which direction i want to go. Yeah.. choosing. I think i know what i want, and i’m putting the energy to see where it takes me. It makes me so afraid tho, afraid of what i’m missing; afraid of what i could have been.

But i’m tired of living could have beens. I know that there are many things i’m missing out on, opportunities not choosen (as opposed to missed). Life comes around in circles, and if i dont break the cycles; who will?

Heh, i talk in riddles now; im just trying to understand the world that im finding myself living in. How much control do i really have over my own situation? Mmmn.. these days i have too much time on my hands.