Unwritten

I have just realized really how much i resist change.. or maybe its just a matter of how far away from the “new” i am. I have just RECENTLY started trying out FireFox. Im also finally starting to accept alternate forms of AIM and entertaining the idea that my webserver might have to change to a web hosting account and bring myself away from hosting my own email and such. I have tried to be so self reliant… I also like the fact that i could say, “oh.. my email? its about 5 feet from my bedroom door” but for what? its such a pain today to even try to learn to maintain it.. and with my pending move out of Davis, alternate methods need to be taken into account.

As to the whole leaving davis thing.. dont even get me started there.. I can feel myself fighting tooth and nail..

I find myself standing at the very bottom of a beautiful valley. Its a wonderous place, and yet ive been looking at it for years. My eyes have been glancing more and more over the mountain tops, wondering whats on the other side.. and still dreading that dangerous climb to the top. I have watched many a friend and family gather their gear and make that climb, some of which i have lost over the horizon. I know my trip is coming soon.. my bags are packed; my gear is set… and yet i still sit here, only looking over the peeks and dreaming of what wonders await.