Change…

Life is just a mirror, and what you see out there, you must first see inside of you.
Wally ‘Famous’ Amos

The human psyche is so fragile and so complex. You never really know what small incident will bring out memories and feelings that you have kept burried for so long. You never know how a single interaction can either invalidate or validate beliefs you hold true to your heart. You never know who will say something that will tell you how wrong… or right you are.

We are such creatures of habbit. (hobbit?) we seek out adventure and yet we long for stability. We love a good mystery, and yet fear the unknown. So many ways in every day life that we contradict ourselves.

Hmm, where am i going with this anyways? Well some events this past weekend seem to have put me in my place. The events themselves, pretty small in the grand scheme of things; and overall i think i have to laugh about them. What it comes down to is… I’ve changed. I think i’ve changed more than even *I* thought i had. My viewpoin on my life and my future have shifted… So what act is this? ACT III? maybe its a sequel?

Listing off the cast of characters in this play of my life i see how much has changed. Leading and supporting Actors/Acrtesses have migrated down to Cameo appearances. Characters who were once just whispers in a random monologue have risen to become headliners. The scenes have changed, the times have changed, and the motivations have changed.

And the more that changes within me, the more i see the world with a new set of eyes. I see how the way i thought things worked, were not necessarily the best. And most importantly of all, i see how much more important forgiving… and forgiveness are not just words to be said.

Forgive and forget, or so the saying goes right? Nah, thats never been my style.. but Forgive and let go… That sounds more like it.