Shout… Shout, let it all out.
One of the hardest lessons that life (and therapy) has taught me is to keep to myself. Well not in a complete hermit atmosphere; but in the sense that i cannot force my company or my help on others. Oftentimes pushing advice or continually seeking to “help” someone can lead to worse situations.. For one thing; your help will somewhere along the line become the expected; and you end up being taken advantage of. you also make someone reliant on you, when in fact they need to learn to help themselves and ask for help when they really need it. Right now im at a point where there are people whom i care about, that i wish i could help; but i dont feel right doing it without them asking. I get sick of hearing my own voice constantly saying, “is there anything i can do?” wishing they could answer me. Maybe they just dont know what i can do…
Bleh, that explination seems so bad; maybe thats why its still a difficult area of change im working on. There can be so many exceptions and varying cases that it really deals with a case by case basis. When should i help? when should i intervene? Which brings me to another topic that has been settling in my mind.
Life can really be broken down into two intertwined things. all things in life are based on timing and location. Good things happen if you are in the right place at the right time, and bad things happen when you are in the wrong place, at the wrong time. Life experience is all a school teaching you when to recognize the right places and when to get there. Life teaches you when to speak up and when to be quiet, life tells you when to speak your mind or let go and go with the group. What in life isnt based on those two things? Everything from finding love, to getting the right job, getting discovered, saving a life.. everything is based on timing and location…
Sadly i seem to be lacking drastically in the timing department. I continue to struggle in knowing when the right time to act or the right time to speak is. I find i can either rush something, or i can slack so much that i miss the exact pivital moment which changes everything. this only leads to a viscious cycle of buildup.. buildup.. buildup… then reflection as i missed it.
I hope my timing is improving tho; i mean with all the misses and near misses ive had i just have to had learned a thing or two.