Ages
Hmm
Well here i am.
I havent posted here in a while, i guess there really isnt much to say. I said on my other blog that ive been moody… Yeah; its still there. Whatever it is i need to mellow out and normalize still needs to be found.
Ive been looking for something.. maybe someone.. and i think its time i stopped. Like my coworker said, “they are never around when you are looking, and when you arent.. suddenly everything is there..” I look to hard, i dont look hard enough. I need to pull everything back and be selfish for a littlebit. Even when i thought i was being selfish, i really wasnt…
But this is about me now, I need to get my shit together and get organized. I need to pull myself out of the ruts, out of the depression, the sadness and the bipolarity. I need to take my responsibilities seriously..
I am not a kid anymore; no matter how much i wish it was so. Babies.. i’m surrounded by babies; defined not by their age but by their mind.
I do not belong where i am right now, I belong somewhere else; and i’m not going to get there by standing around.