Making the choice…

Making choices is hard. There are many times where i like to avoid making decisions. I like to have some decisions just be made for me, that way i can avoid the responsibility when things go wrong. For me decisions seem so… final; so concrete that i could never go back.

One of the life lessons that were hard for me to accept is that decisions are not necessarily final. I can decide on something, make a mistake; and change my mind. however the concepts still battle in my mind. If i’m expecting that i can change my mind; did i really make the decision?

Syntax.. word usage. I’m constantly nitpicking things in my own brain. Focusing energy in places where they are not needed. Why? because it distracts me from things i have no control over. It keeps me from thinking about the things i want that i cannot have.

So many decisions facing me. So many choices i have made… I still believe in many of them, and i hope to see them through. Otherwise, i will wait till something comes along to change my mind.