Brain Blogging

I wish I could hook up my blogs to my brain. By the time the idea comes to me, and i get a chance to open up a window, a program.. anything that lets me write it all down; the message has changed.
Self censorship or just selective editing.. maybe i’m really just improving it? I’m not sure really; I wish i could just transfer my most pure thoughts onto paper without the influence of my hands, without the influence of the feeling of the keyboards on my finger.. just pure raw emotion and thought; open for the world to see..

I wish i could be more open, not afraid of what is out there to get me. not constantly looking over my shoulder for whomever is standing around waiting for me to fuck up. I’m paranoid like that; paranoid that my friends will leave me, that i will forever be alone… trapped inside of my own mind, never realizing my full and powerful potential.