Mini Revelations
I had lunch with Christina Chin down in Cerritos this weekend. I hadnt seen her in years; not since she pledge APO with Mantha. Honestly :) i couldnt remember much about her; but we’ve been chatting over AIM for the past couple of months. Ive gotten to know her again and its been fun! Aha; the final piece was when i called her tho; that connected the correct face in my head.. haha.
Anyways; We had the normal “catchup chat” that everyone that hasnt seen eachother in a while gets into. We talked about school, life, and just random things. It was nice.. and probably the longest conversation we’ve EVER had; even when she was up here and we were both part of APO. Its weird how time changes things :)
What i liked most tho; was how you can sometimes get a fresh look on things; just by talking to someone you havent seen in a while. The one that sticks out is an excerpt where Christina and I were talking about my age… her comment went something like this, “You and sam just dont look old, but its not just your look; you have a child like aura around you” (ok, mayhaps not her EXACT words; but close enough). I was stunned a little. Here i was; the past couple months.. couple years all down because i “felt” old; when in fact im not old :-D haha. I found it very weird that I could feel so old; and here she could look me straight in the eye and say i had a youthful aura… And when i look at it more; its true… I realy dont think i’ll ever “grow” up the way most people think I should.. Haha.
On another note; a second comment came out of this weekend. Driving down with Mantha, somewhere on the outskirts of LA; i started asking her some questions and what she saw in me.. and the things i’ve been doing. She then made a comment that I have heard many times; but for some reason it really hit home this time… “Your world doesnt have very many greys, its all black and white..” It really is a true aspect of what people see in me; And while its not necessarily true; its the only part of me that I allow most people to see. I dont believe that I only see things in Black and White; but the part of me that dabbles in the grey areas, that makes the thousands of compromises i make every day… its not something i’ve been able to share.