Unwritten

Dear H,
Your and my friendship and “relationship” lasted all of what… a month? maybe 2 at most. It was fun times.. Fun brief times.
I was way over my head; It was a time when i thought i was a superman… this end all to everyone’s problem. I thought i could solve anything, i thought i could get through to you; when everyone else didnt seem to understand. I thought… i thought so many things. You are cute, you were fun, and we spent many nights just chatting. Really, in hindsight i didnt know so much about you… Barely anything at all.
Then that night.. the night you scared both F and I.. we drove around all night trying to find you, and when we did; you kept driving away. A cry for help? a cry for attention? Really.. i dont know; but i was so overcome with worry… with caring.. with the desire to help that i was ready to try anything.
You stayed over, we kissed… then everything seemed to jump into fast forward. Its not like i wasnt attracted to you; but it all went so fast… and.. within 6 days it was over again. I gave you hope where there was none.. i thought that i could do it all… bit your words cut through me like a knife, “I can learn to love you”
The order was all wrong, the love should have come first… I knew i was just something there, someone you could latch onto in the stormy seas of your life. I couldnt let the lie go on, and i had to end it. you cried, I cried.. and we pretended to keep the friendship; but in the end we stopped talking, we went our own separate ways.
I wonder about what your up to once in a while, and when i saw you at graduation, looking happier, or at least more at peace; i knew i made the right decision back then. I hope life continues to treat you well.
Good luck, and maybe one day we will meet again.
-W